I will "Stay Strong".

I always write in Spanish, because it’s my natural language, and I’m always afraid of making mistakes. So I keep my stuff in English for myself. But sometimes the situation is deep and is hardly to control the way I feel, so I rather to express myself like this. I always write about the love of my life, about the things we lived when we were together. But now it’s time to speak about me, not you or us; Just “me, myself and I”. I feel so weak all the time, I feel like I need something, or someone. I don’t feel comfortable with myself, with my feelings, with my body. I don’t feel comfortable with so many other things. It’s hard to forget the past when the past it’s pursuing you. Because I have a good memory and that’s my biggest defect. I can’t forget something I see every single day, because it is in my heart and sadly in my arms too. Because wounds always heal, but there’s always going to be scars. It’s not cute when I see my arms. It’s not cute when I brush my teeth 2000 times in day just for not being hungry. It’s not funny or healthy when I starve myself. But it’s hard to control things when you do that things often. Sometimes it’s just not cool being me. People must think I just do that kind of stuff for have some attention but I know what I do, and why I’m doing it. Whatever, things change. I just hope someday find release. Demi Lovato taught me to “Stay Strong” But sometimes I just don’t have strength enough.


“It’s like you pouring salt in my cuts.” Demi Lovato